Strange Desire: Chapter Eight

Strange Desire: Chapter Eight

AN: Thanks to those of you that actually reviewed the last chapter. I felt awful, so getting it out there was a struggle.

Rose and Jasper in the kitchen first, then we get to meet Jamie. : ) Some of you seem to think that he's James, but he isn't. I actually named him after a gay friend of mine because he asked me to.

All right, I'm dedicating this chapter to OCDJen as she didn't know gays/lesbians couldn't get married in almost every state here or have easy adoptions. That was the reason for my pushing on the medical power of attorney.

Okay, on to the chapter, I probably talked too much here, but I couldn't help myself. : )

Characters belong to SM, but it's definitely my own story.

JPOV

Edward had left for work already leaving me alone with my thoughts. I liked how he had taken the way I felt about fucking from behind and tried to make me more comfortable with it. I still wasn't sure I liked it, but being able to see Edward while doing it was... amazing. Seeing us together and happy during it was a powerful feeling. I don't think I ever had this intense of an attraction to anyone in my entire life. The more times we were together the stronger it became instead of the other way around. I wasn't quite able to form the words of how much I loved him. I know I'd said it, but still it never seemed like enough. One day maybe I'd get it right.

Sitting on the couch I thought back to yesterday and Edward's flashbacks of his parents. They were concerning to me, especially as they seemed to be centered on his father's hatred of homosexuality. It made me wonder if Edward would eventually run from me, from us. I hoped not, but it still made me nervous. Shit, shit, shit. I couldn't think about this now, I had to get up.

Running my hands through my hair I tried to decide what to do. Going into the kitchen to make dinner I remembered Rosalie was coming over to cook, but I had no idea when. Walking back out I went and got my computer, at least I could distract myself with writing for a while or going back over what was already there. I didn't have to grade any other papers, the next big thing was my students finals and that was coming soon.

Turning my computer on I looked through my pages of what I'd written and was pleased at how it had turned out so far. I wrote a few notes and ideas down as I knew I wouldn't have time to really get into it before Rosalie came over. Her and Emmett seemed nice enough, but I still wasn't sure Emmett would ever be comfortable here. I guess I'd just have to wait and see.

The doorbell rang and Rosalie was standing there with several grocery bags in her hands. I took some of them off her and said “Hey.”

“Hey, thanks for letting me do this. I know it seems weird.” Rosalie said to me smiling.

“Well, I have to say it isn't a request I thought I'd ever hear from anyone.” I told her chuckling.

Walking back into the kitchen for the second time I put the stuff down on the counter and asked “Do you need some help?”

She shook her head and said “No, just tell me where your pots and pans are. We still haven't gotten ours fully unpacked.”

Showing her where the things were she said “Thanks.”

Curious I asked “What exactly are you making, anyway?”

“Oh, I'm making gumbo and bread pudding.” She told me pulling stuff out of her bags.

“You're doing what? How the hell did you learn to cook that here?” I asked her a little incredulous.

She laughed and said “Oh, one of my aunt's is from Louisiana. She still has the sing-song accent too.” Then she looked at me seriously before saying “Now I'm making this, but you are going to watch me make it in case Emmett has questions, got it?”

Saluting her I said “Yes, mam.” She laughed and rolled her eyes at me. Getting down to work she showed me how to make gumbo, I have to say my nostrils felt like they were on fire when the spicy smell hit my nose. I just hoped it wasn't so hot I couldn't eat it. How the hell would I pull off I made something like that if I couldn't even swallow it? “Umm... how hot is this exactly?” I asked Rosalie.

“Here, try some.” Rosalie said as she handed me a spoon. Oh my god, that was good. It had a spicy kick to it, but no more than I could handle.

“That's really good, Rosalie.” I told her truthfully.

Grinning at me she said “I know. My aunt is a good cook. I've tasted other people's versions of this and let me tell you plenty of people screw it up.” Then she tilted her head and said “You can call me Rose or Rosie by the way, I don't go by Rosalie very often.”

“Okay, Rose.” I said watching her. Actually, I was watching her to see if I was still attracted to women or not. I had never been attracted to any man other than Edward and still wasn't, so I was sure I should still be attracted to women, right? No, I wasn't. That was frustrating. It made me wonder where the hell I fit in. Not only that, but what would happen if Edward screwed us up? I didn't think I'd be the one to do it, I'd already faced the reality of being with him, but him... I wondered if he'd ever climb his way completely out of that closet. Shit, shit, shit. I'd be fucking screwed if he never did and I knew it.

“So... if you guys have known each other twenty-four years, do you have pictures from when you were younger?” Rosalie asked me throwing me for a loop.

“What?” I asked shaking my head. She repeated herself again and I said “Oh, yeah. I'll be right back, I think I have a picture on my shelf in my bedroom.” Leaving the kitchen and my wayward thoughts I went to my bedroom and grabbed the framed picture of Edward and me as kids. We'd gone camping with our parents in this one. We were about eight and had fallen out of the canoe we were in, both of us were soaked. Our eyes shone with happiness and innocence, mine were a little happier than Edward's though.

Walking back out of the room into the dining room Rosalie was standing there and she was looking at me and the door behind me. Then her eyes flicked to Edward's bedroom door and back to mine her eyebrows raised. “You don't share the same bedroom?” She asked me curious.

Shrugging at her I said “Well, no. When we moved here we weren't together. Someday maybe we will, but for now it's fine how it is.”

“Don't you want to sleep in the same bed together.” She asked pushing.

“We do sleep in the same bed, but in case you haven't noticed we don't exactly have the same sleeping schedule. Edward works all night and I work all day, so...” I trailed off.

“That's too bad. Hopefully it will be better for you this summer. I did hear that right? That you weren't going to teach during the summer?” She asked me and I nodded.

Shaking her head she asked “Can I see that picture now?” Handing it over to her she looked at it and smiled. “You guys were cute.” Then she closed her own eyes and said “I wish I had my own kids already.”

“Why don't you then?” I asked her.

Rosalie snorted and said “I always thought I would. I thought I'd be married with kids by now, you know the perfect little family. We can make all the plans we want, but most of the time I think we make them just so God can laugh at us and our stupidity.” I didn't know what the appropriate response was to that so I said nothing.

She handed the picture back to me and I went to put it up coming back to find her in the kitchen a couple of minutes later. “What are you making now?” I asked her. She had a pot on top of the stove that she was stirring something in and pouring bourbon in it.

“Oh, it's the sauce for bread pudding. Some people use rum or cognac or nothing, but I was taught to use bourbon.” She said and turned the fire down.

Rounding on me she said “So you guys aren't actually gay, are you?” My head was spinning, she seemed to go from one thought to a completely new one rather quickly.

Blinking at her I said “Edward is bi actually, and I'm...” I just shrugged at her.

She shrugged back at me and said “What's that supposed to mean?”

“It means I don't fucking know, okay?” I snapped at her. She turned away from me then and didn't say another word about it, thank god.

A few minutes later she turned back to me and said “Don't tell Emmett. He'd never allow me to come over if he knew you were anything but gay.”

Snorting at her I asked “Just exactly how many secrets are we going to have to keep from Emmett?” That seemed ridiculous.

“I think just those two.” She said laughing, finally figuring out how stupid this was.

“Good, because I don't like lying to people.” I told her.

Rosalie took her phone out and called Emmett telling him to come over here for dinner whenever he got home. “Why aren't you going to eat at your house?” I asked her.

“Well... since you let me cook here, you should get some. Also, I don't want to carry this stuff over there. Besides, if Emmett can be around only one of you at a time maybe he'd be more comfortable. You guys freaked him out a little pawing all over each other.” She told me and I couldn't help but laugh. If she only knew just how hard it was not to do more than we did that day.

Emmett did seem more comfortable with only just us there. He raved about the food and complimented me often on it, I bit my cheek to keep from blurting out that Rosalie had made it. It seemed sad that she had to hide something like that. There wasn't anything left though as Rosalie and I knew there wouldn't be. Emmett asked “So what are you guys doing next Saturday?” I was sure he just wanted more food.

“We're going to a party.” I told him and his face fell. I held in my laughter.

“That's too bad. I wish you weren't going, I like you guys.” Emmett said and my eyes cut across to Rosalie's, hers had widened at his words.

“What? I didn't think you were comfortable here.” She said to him.

Shrugging he said “I wasn't, but I got over it, okay?”

I couldn't wait to tell Edward as he was the one that seemed to have the most problem with people not liking him because of his sexual orientation. I just had a problem with people not liking me in general, I needed approval. One of these days we were both going to have to get over it. It wasn't like you could make everyone in the world like you.

The rest of the week I barely saw Edward. I was gone before he got back from work and by the time I got home he didn't have any time other than to grab something to eat and walk out the door in a hurry. God, I couldn't wait until summer. It wouldn't be that hard for me to stay up all night as that's when I did my best writing anyway, then we'd be on the same schedule. The only thing that changed was the papers he'd brought home from work to be signed to become each other's medical power of attorney. They laid on the coffee table as they had to be notarized and knowing Edward he'd probably want a lawyer to look at it. That would be difficult to find someone to do that as we both had to be there and our schedules were so vastly different.

Saturday finally rolled around, the day of the party. I was nervous as I'd been thinking about this all week. Would his friends even like me? Would I like them? I didn't even know what kind of party this would be like, all I got from Edward was that his friend was interesting. Whatever the fuck that meant. Not only that, but Bella would be there.

It took me all week to figure out why I disliked her so much without having a concrete reason to. Things had finally clicked into place. It also made me realize he'd used her as a scapegoat for his feelings for me. That made me rethink the whole situation, maybe she wasn't as bad as I'd thought.

When we were in high school Edward went to prom with Bella and about halfway through it they'd disappeared. At the time I was angry without even knowing why and I took my date back to her house as her parents weren't home and fucked her hard. To this day I don't remember the girl's name.

When I got home that night Edward was already there and dressed for bed, he seemed upset, but wouldn't tell me why. Of course, I knew now. He started hanging out with Bella more which made me think he was dating her or they were at least friends with benefits, so I jumped right into a relationship. I wasn't going to hang around by myself. As I still had no idea I even liked Edward my mind never even went there as to why this bothered me. I thought maybe it was because he was my friend and now he was giving someone else the attention he'd always given me, that I was jealous of it. I didn't know my own relationship with that girl would spur him on to do stupid shit, to fuck that many random men. If I'd known, regardless of how I felt about him, I would have ended it. That just wasn't healthy for anyone.

Sitting up in bed I waited until Edward got home. He came in the door looking like he was going to fall flat on his face. It was a good thing this party didn't start until late. He removed his shoes and his scrubs and climbed into bed still in an undershirt, boxers and socks. Laying face down he turned his head to look at me, his green eyes bloodshot. He said “I love you, Jazz.” My hand reached out to touch his face and cupped his cheek, the stubble there was sexy as hell.

Edward was asleep before I even got out “I love you, too.” I decided to lay back down and see if I could catch some more sleep as well. I knew this party was supposed to go on pretty late. Drifting in and out of consciousness all day I had a million questions in my head for Edward. They seemed to come on all week and the more they stayed in my head, the more they festered there. The longer they stayed there the more negative the thoughts became.

Finally I couldn't take it anymore and took a shower and got dressed. I sat down on the couch in silence for once doing nothing. Closing my eyes I waited until Edward was awake with me. Feeling hands on my shoulders I turned my head to see Edward leaning down and his lips snagged mine. He kissed my neck and I turned my head to give him better access feeling the rough stubble against my own skin. God, it felt good. I turned my own body around on the couch and attacked his exposed neck. Edward groaned and said “I need to get dressed, we've got to go soon.” As it was the party had already started.

“Do we have to?” I didn't want to leave, I'd missed Edward too much all week.

“Aren't you the one that said you wanted to meet my friends? Come on, let me get dressed and we'll go.” Edward said.

Capitulating I said “Okay, but don't shave. I want to feel that on me later.” Then I ran my hands down his cheeks.

Groaning again he said “Damn it, Jasper. Are you trying to kill me here?”

“Are you?” I shot back. He removed my hands from his face and walked away from me. He came back dressed and ready to go a few minutes later, it didn't look like he even bothered to fix his hair.

“Jasper, we're going to have to drive there. He lives about forty-five minutes from here by car.” Edward said leading me out to the elevator. I wondered why he'd chosen this instead of the stairs, that was, until the doors closed and he attacked my mouth again. Wrapping my arms around him I pressed my body as close to his as I could. We hastily pulled apart as others got on, both of us grinning stupidly.

Getting in his car we took off and my mind again went back to all the thoughts that had been running through my head all week. “Jasper, why are you so silent? Is something wrong?” Edward asked me.

“No, nothing is wrong. I've just had entirely too much time to think this week.” I told him and hoped he'd drop it, but knew he wouldn't. I wouldn't answer if I wasn't pushed, he wouldn't answer if he was.

“What did you think about?” He asked me. I didn't even know where to start or who to start with.

Deciding to start with Bella as we were about to see her I said “For one thing, Bella.”

“What about her?” He asked.

“I just realized this week that I've been jealous of her.” I answered as if he didn't know this already. He probably felt like he was pulling teeth at this point trying to just get me to spit it out.

“Why? There isn't anything to be jealous of.” He told me confused.

“Probably because all this time I thought you guys were fucking each other when we were younger.” It wasn't the most tactful thing to say, but at least I'd said it.

He shot me a look and said “What are you talking about, Jasper? I never slept with Bella, not even once. I did kiss her one time and she told me she wasn't having any of it because I loved you.”

“Really?” I asked him feeling a little lighter.

“Yes, really.” He answered and reached over squeezing my hand. “What else has been turning in your mind?”

“Um... How do you know Jamie?” I asked him, this was more a curious question than a serious one or so I thought.

Edward looked out the window before answering me, then he said “If he wants you to know then he'll tell you, it's not my story to tell.” How would it only be his story if Edward was the other half of the equation?

Leaving it alone for now I said “Okay... then just exactly how old is Jamie today?”

“Twenty-three. We've been friends for about seven years.” Edward told me. He'd hidden someone and not even mentioned them in passing in seven years? What the fuck?

“Edward, do these people even know who I am?” I asked him.

“Of course they know, they all do. You were the only one left out of that.” He told me. I was angry of course, even if I understood why he did it.

Huffing I looked out the window unable to see anything as it was too dark. “Don't be like that, Jasper. I was too afraid of losing you to let you into that part of my life.” He pleaded with me.

“Fine. I do have another question though.” I told him.

“What is it?” He asked me on guard now.

“Will there be a lot of people at this party that you have fucked?” I asked him. Damn it, damn it, damn it. Why did I ask him that? I was a glutton for punishment I suppose.

Edward blanched at me and said “I don't know.” I felt sick, my stomach felt like it'd dropped. I knew he'd been with quite a few men before. Why the hell had I not asked much about it before now? Oh yeah, because the lust was far too high to take it seriously.

Arriving at what looked like a huge house we parked on the lawn with quite a large assortment of other cars. Reaching for the door handle Edward caught my hand before I could open the door and said “Wait.” I closed my eyes and breathed deeply. At that particular moment I wanted nothing more than to get out of this car and away from Edward.

“Jasper, you already knew I'd been with other men before we got together, so why is this bothering you now?” He asked me pinching his nose. I didn't know. Jealousy, maybe? I couldn't answer instead choosing to look out the window. I never thought I'd be faced with people he'd possibly had one night stands with before. His hands found my face and turned me to face him. “Jasper, I love you. I've always only loved you.” He kissed my lips, but I kept mine firmly closed. Pulling away from me he sighed and asked “Do you want to go home?”

“Hell no, I don't want to go home. I feel like you stuck in me in a closet I wasn't even aware I was in. Let's go.” I said angrily opening the door. Walking quickly to the front door I didn't even care at that point if Edward was behind me or not.

Edward wisely remained beside me without touching me. I don't know why I was so pissed off at this stuff now. It was ludicrous. I'd never been jealous of anyone or anything, but apparently when it came to Edward I was and that pissed me off even more. I could hear Edward grumbling under his breath that it wasn't a good idea to not talk to me for almost a week, nothing good would come of it. He was probably right. If I'd faced him off with the things that bothered me right then they wouldn't have had time to grow and loom above us.

Determined to have a good time, determined to make these people like me, I plastered a smile on my face. Edward looked forlorn beside me. Walking into the house my eyes and ears were assaulted. So much so that I almost walked right back out, except I was frozen in place. “Come on, Jasper, you can't block the doorway. It's either in or out.” Edward said as I shook my head and took a few tentative steps forward.

The house itself was huge and open. The back doors were open so people could come in and out, but the most significant thing I saw was that all of the furniture from the living room had been removed. I do mean all of it. There was a dance floor in the middle of it instead and music blared as people danced in semi-darkness. Holy shit! Why didn't this guy just go ahead and have his party at a club if he was going to do all of this? It sure as hell would be easier. The only places to sit were the other rooms and stairs which all seemed to be opened to anybody. There had to be at minimum a hundred people here and they looked to be from every walk of life imaginable. People were there that I didn't think would ever meet or know each other if they didn't know this guy, who the hell was he anyway?

Bella spotted us walk in as she was standing on the edge of the living room looking in. She turned to us excitedly and surprisingly she hugged me first, although she pulled me down to say “Jasper, wipe that smile off your face, it looks ridiculous and fake.” Then she turned to Edward and hugged him saying “Cheer up, this is a party.”

Edward only grimaced and asked “Where is Jake?”

“Oh, he had to work. I brought a friend of mine from work instead.” She replied. “I have no idea where he went though.”

Edward wandered off to get a couple of beers before coming back to me and Bella. We stood on the outside looking in it felt like. I was still dumbfounded. There were people everywhere making out or doing more openly aside from dancing. I wondered how in hell Bella could even be comfortable here, I wasn't. When I asked her about it she shrugged and said “You get used to it.” I didn't think I ever would. After a few minutes though I could hear snatches of normal conversation, that made me relax being here more than anything else, people talking about their jobs and whatnot.

Turning to Edward I asked “So which one of these people is Jamie?”

Looking amused for the first time today Edward said “You'll hear him in exactly four seconds. One... two... three... four.”

Then I heard a male voice explode out “It's not a twist-off cap, imbecile.” The owner of the voice walked over to us wincing in pain. He wasn't very tall, his hair was dark brown and he had dark blue eyes, he was dressed normally. He certainly looked normal and after what Edward had said I was surprised. Well, at least Edward probably didn't fuck this guy as he wasn't blonde, that made me breathe a sigh of relief. When he saw Edward he smiled widely and said “Remind me next time why I don't do charity cases.” Edward and Bella both looked at him laughter shining in their eyes.

“That was cruel, you know. You probably scarred him for life.” Edward told him chuckling.

“Him? What about me? Fuck, that hurt.” The man in front of me said grimacing.

“What happened to your boyfriend?” Bella asked from the opposite side of me. She had placed herself beside me and not Edward which I thought was odd.

“I dumped his ass, that's what happened.” He told her.

“Why? I thought you really liked him.” Bella asked.

He grunted and said “I did. The problem was everything in the bedroom sucked ass.” Then he laughed and said “Actually, it might have been great if he could even do that, but no.” Poking me in the chest he asked “Would you stay with someone like that?” Who the hell was this guy? I tried to take a step back, but there was nowhere else to go.

Turning his head back to Edward he said “That is why I won't do charity cases anymore.” Then his eyes flicked back to me as realization dawned on his face. “Wait. You must be Jasper? That's the only reason Edward would possibly be here.”

“Yes, I must be.” I said laughing. Well, at least my bad mood was fading quickly and a real smile could take over.

Edward said “Jasper, this is Jamie.”

I watched as Jamie still kept poking me, which was frankly getting on my nerves. “You mean he's real? I thought you just might be a figment of Edward's imagination.” Then he turned his head to Edward and glaring at him said “It's about time you decided not to keep me and your other friends a dirty little secret.”

Groaning Edward mumbled under his breath “Great... I knew they'd have that in common.” I rolled my eyes still slightly miffed at him.

“So... why didn't you just go ahead and have this party at a club?” I asked Jamie actually curious.

“I didn't want people kicked out when they weren't sober enough to go home.” He said. The answer was so logical I was astonished after what Edward had told me about him.

Then a couple of other guys walked up to us. I assumed they were a couple, they looked like it anyway, they were just a little too into each other's personal space. The shorter one of the two looked to be Hispanic and the other guy was far more pale than either Edward or I. “Hey Edward, we haven't seen you in a long time.” The shorter one said.

“Yeah, I know. Guys, this is Jasper.” Edward said and the expressions on their faces made it seem like they'd heard of me before. That was disconcerting to not know anything about anyone and yet they knew things about you.

“Jasper, this is Raphael and Sean.” Edward said motioning to them.

Before I even got a chance to respond or say hi Raphael said just a little too loudly “Who invited the drag queen?” His entire body shuddered as one passed by us. Jamie's mouth gaped open for a minute.

Bella interrupted and said “What's wrong with drag queen's?”

The taller of the two, Sean said laughing “Drag Queen's are like the gay man's version of clowns. As in scary.” I wasn't sure if I wanted to laugh or if I was offended.

Jamie spun round and said “That is my friend you are talking about. If you can't keep your mouth shut, then you can leave.”

They both backed away muttering “Sorry.” Jamie was still huffing when they left our side.

“Fucking idiots.” Jamie grumbled at them.

“Where's Alec?” Edward asked Jamie and Bella nodded her head. I assumed this was someone they knew well.

Jamie's face nearly turned puce as he said “We aren't friends anymore.”

“Why?” Bella asked him.

“Because he's an idiot.” Jamie offered in explanation, we just looked at him. He started mumbling under his breath talking to himself, all I heard were snatches of words like fucking idiot, Typhoid Mary and not at my party. He never did actually tell us what Alec did that pissed him off, but it wasn't that hard to figure out. Edward's own face turned from pink, to red, to purple as I thought his head might explode. I'd never seen him so angry in our entire life together.

Placing my hand on Edward's shoulder I said “Calm down. You can only control your decisions, no one else's.” I watched as his face gradually lost it's angry color and he took some deep breaths. Then he grabbed me so tightly I could barely breathe. Struggling to get him to at least loosen his arms he seemed to only hold on tighter. “Edward, you have to let go. I can't fucking breathe.” Releasing his hold on me he moved his hands to my head and kissed me roughly.

Jamie gasped beside us and said shocked “You mean... you're together?”

I couldn't look away from Edward at that moment or speak. Bella clapped her hands excitedly and said “Yep, isn't it wonderful? About damn time, too.”

“But... but... Jasper isn't gay.” Jamie spluttered. How the hell would he know that? Then he grabbed me by the arm and led me outside and away from Edward. What the fuck?

“What the hell? Let go of me.” I said pulling my arm out of his grasp. He dropped my arm, but only once we were outside.

Jamie pointed at me accusingly and said “You aren't gay.”

“Tell me something I don't know.” I shot back at him.

Looking thoroughly amused his face broke out into a wide grin and he said “Alright, I'll tell you something you don't know. I probably get you more than anyone else in this house.”

“What are you talking about?” I asked him confused. God, this guy was irritating.

“Jasper, I'm pansexual.” He informed me.

“Uh... what...?” Was I supposed to know what that meant? Did I miss that term somewhere?

He looked at me smug before saying “It means I don't put love in a box, Jasper. It means I will fall in love with whomever I want to, whether it's a man, a woman, a transgender person or anyone else. I refuse to be put in society's shackles. I do prefer men, but I'm open to anyone.”

Then he looked at me more seriously “It means I can understand why you are with Edward even if you aren't gay. I don't think you are bisexual either.”

Frowning at him I said “How do you know that?”

“Look around, Jasper, tell me if you find anyone else here attractive at all.” Jamie said to me. Looking around at the various people there I still wasn't attracted to any one of them until my eyes landed on Edward. Jamie nodded his head and said “Yep, exactly like I thought.”

“Jasper, your desire for Edward is strong. I never really believed Bella when she said that it was, but I can see now she was right.” Jamie said. Okay, but now I was more confused than I was before, damn it. Thanks a fucking lot.

“Then what the hell am I?” I asked him pissed off.

“Honestly? I don't know. Does it matter? Do you need a label?” He asked me. No, I guess I didn't, but it sure as hell would make my life easier if I could explain it better. Then he cocked his head to the side and said “You should probably just tell people you are bi, it'll make your life easier anyway.” I looked at him incredulous, did he just read my mind?

“Do I have to tell people what I am or am not? It's fucking ridiculous how much emphasis people place on idiotic labels instead of wanting to know me for me.” I said, this had actually been one of the things bothering me for the past few days.

“I know, Jasper. I know. Trust me, I'd be right there with you, but don't expect many other people to be.” Jamie said looking... sad?

“Now tell me, you and Edward? What? Why? When?” He asked me and I wasn't sure if he actually wanted to know the answer or if he just liked the gossip. My eyes found Edward's, his apparently hadn't left us during this entire conversation.

“Um...” I stumbled out. I only gave him the basics, if Edward wanted him to know more then let him tell it.

Then Jamie leaned over towards me and placed his hand on my arm and said “If you and Edward don't work out, I'm willing.” Staring at him I was sure I had a look of horror on my face. Snorting with laughter Jamie said “Relax, I just wanted to see what your reaction would be. It was the right one, by the way.” Then I saw Edward walking towards us also laughing, like they were both in on this joke. I narrowed my eyes at both of them.

“Take your hands off my man.” Edward said chortling.

“Oh, I'm so scared. What are you going to do about it then?” Jamie asked him teasing. Edward looked calculating before he picked up Jamie's hand forcibly removing it and spun me around so my back was to his chest, his arms wrapped firmly around me, backing away. Jamie only laughed at us before he was approached by someone else distracting him.

Edward whispered in my ear “Come dance with me.”

“Uh... I... d... don't...” I stuttered out, I'd never danced with anyone other than a woman and the people here weren't exactly dancing. I was positive that some of them were actually fucking each other.

“Come on, Jazz, it'll be fun.” Edward said and nipped at my neck. I sighed and followed him, of course. Edward led me to the dance floor and stood behind me holding one of my hips with one hand and the other immediately found itself underneath my shirt. His fingertips trailed down my chest and stomach making me press my ass against him. Groaning against me Edward's mouth found my neck and I felt the stubble on his cheeks rasping against me making me moan. Then his teeth found my earlobe and he nipped at it before whispering “Turn your head toward me, Jazz.” Turning my head his lips captured mine and I opened my mouth to him, this time feeling his hot breath all the way down in my own lungs. I shivered in pleasure. Were we dancing? I didn't know and I didn't care. As far as I was concerned there was no one else there but Edward and I. Keeping my eyes open I continued to kiss Edward looking right into his green ones. One of my hands slipped to his head to pull us closer, but when my other hand went to his ass pushing him into me I watched as his eyes fluttered closed. I could feel him harden against me, I was already there.

Edward's hand moved down and caressed my hard cock through my pants and I ground my ass into him needing more. “I need you. Now.” I growled out. Edward groaned and stepped away from me. Then he grabbed me by the hand and walked as quickly as he could up a couple of flights of stairs and peering into different rooms found the one he wanted. He didn't hesitate and kept going further into the room into a large carpeted bathroom. Shutting and locking the door he pulled my shirt off first thing before he attacked my mouth again. I wanted to rip his shirt off, but didn't think it would be a good idea here. Tugging it up he lifted his arms long enough for me to get it off before attacking me again, this time he was intently sucking my neck. Then I felt one of the most wonderful sensations. His tongue licked my left nipple then he dragged his cheek across it, the roughness making me growl out loudly. It was probably the loudest sound I'd ever made when we were together as Edward looked up at me his eyes wide and did it again recreating the sound. “Fuck.” I said as my head hit the door. Repeating himself on the other side he got the same reaction from me, but this time my body shook as it seemed to be more sensitive.

Pulling Edward's head up towards me I breathed out “Fuck me, please.” It had been too long now and I was desperate. I probably would have let him do anything he wanted then. Edward unbuckled my belt and unbuttoned my pants, I breathed a sigh of relief. Kicking off my shoes first I unzipped my own pants and shoved them down along with my boxers and stepped out of them. Edward had pulled his clothes off faster than I had. Standing there I thought he was beautiful. Reaching my hand out I traced the trail of hair down his stomach and down into the bronze curls covering his balls. Snatching my hand away from him Edward knelt down and took a few long licks over my cock before wrapping his lips around it. I could feel both the sensation of his warm wet mouth surrounding me and the hair on his face rubbing against my thighs, it was delicious. I put my hands in his hair feeling the contrast in the softness there and tried hard not to fuck his mouth. I wanted to cum with him inside me.

Letting me go Edward looked around the room before finding what he was looking for as it had been placed right by the door. On the bathroom counter sat a bowl with various condoms in it and beside it was one of the largest bottles of lube I'd ever seen. If I hadn't been too turned on to care I would have asked about it. Edward actually picked up two condoms and ripped one of them open rolling it over me before doing the same to himself. Then he picked up the bottle of lube and poured it into his hand before rubbing it over both of our erect cocks. I groaned at his touch. Using what was left on his fingers he pressed one into me quickly followed by a second and pumped my ass before adding a third finger. I was breathing heavy with need by now and pushed Edward down onto the soft carpeted floor taking me with him. Keeping my legs straddled over his I begged “Now, please. I want to feel your hard cock inside me. I need to.” Removing his fingers from my ass he gripped his shaft and guided it into me. I breathed a sigh of relief once he was all the way in.

Placing my hands on his chest I moved my ass over him feeling him slide in and out. His hands cupped my ass and helped pull me down to him as forcefully as he could stand. Edward grunted and I placed my finger over his swollen lips tracing them feeling the softness there until his tongue snaked out and sucked on it. Removing my finger from his mouth I leaned down and kissed his lips with my own right before he sucked my tongue into his mouth. Groaning at the action I put my arms around his shoulders and flipped us so that he was on top. Our mouths were still melded to each other's and I felt him moving inside me again. My own cock was trapped between our stomachs and I could feel Edward slide over it. Gradually my hands moved down his back and down towards his ass as he began thrusting faster. I gently squeezed the muscles of my ass around his cock a few times making Edward groan in pleasure. Reaching his hand down he gripped my cock and slowly started pumping his hand around it. “Edward, please. I need it faster.” I begged. Then he gripped my shaft at the base a little tighter before making upward strokes. I tried to push into his hand faster as he pushed deeper into my ass.

Looking up into his face I watched him looking at me, it was surreal. At some point our fucking had turned into making love, I just wasn't sure when that was. Our lips met and he gently sucked my bottom lip into his and nibbled on it. Then my mouth attached itself to his neck and I sucked hard as his hand was nearly done pumping me, I could feel my stomach tighten and cried out “Edward, I'm going to cum.” His hand only got faster and before I knew it I was shooting my cum into the condom he'd put there and my ass was tightening around his own cock. Groaning at the feeling Edward worked himself into a frenzy, I could see sweat dripping off his forehead. I was sure I matched him. “Come on, cum for me, please.” I said and felt him bite down between my neck and my shoulder right before he joined me in ecstasy.

Panting hard he came out of me and took both of our condoms to throw them away. I still couldn't move, I thought I could fall asleep right there. Edward must have thought the same thing because he came back to me and laid down beside me wrapping one arm around me. His face was flushed and his breathing still heavy as he laid his head on my chest. I'd completely forgotten where we were. As we lay there our skin began to cool, the cooler air drying the sweat from our bodies. I kissed his head and wished we didn't have to move, that we were at home. Eventually the sounds of the party drifted back to our ears and Edward said “We'd better get dressed and go back downstairs.” I groaned not wanting to move at all. “Jazz, come on and get up.” Edward said pulling me up with him. To be honest if I died right there I would have been happy, I just didn't want to move. My legs were still shaky when I stood up and started putting my clothes back on. When I saw myself in the mirror my face was flushed just like Edward's and both of us had matching crazy hair. Oh well, it's not like other people here hadn't been doing the same thing.

Circling his arms around me Edward whispered “I love you, Jasper. So much.”

I closed my eyes content before opening them again and said “I love you too, more than you will ever know.” Then I kissed his lips softly before we turned our attention to the door about to walk out.

When we passed it I saw the bowl of condoms there on the counter and the lube and asked “What is that about exactly?”

Snorting in laughter Edward said “You can thank Jamie for that. You'll find that in every single room of this house, it's always there at every party he's ever hosted.” I briefly wondered why, then thought no... I didn't have to wonder why, I knew.

Making our way back downstairs I noticed that many of the people that had been there before we went upstairs were gone and had been replaced by new ones, as though they'd come in shifts. Shit, how long had we been up there? Looking closer I could see some sort of scuffle going on downstairs and then Jamie's voice rang out loudly “Get out.” I hadn't even grasped what was going on before Edward was rushing down the stairs.

The only thing I could make out was a few people pushing another guy out of the house, the guy kept repeating “He wanted it.” The guy was blonde and gorgeous and had green eyes that reminded me of Edward's, except for the fact that they looked completely crazed and made my skin crawl. When I finally reached Edward and Jamie they were standing next to a boy, I say it's a boy as he looked entirely too young to even be here. Jesus, how old was this kid? The boy's nose was bleeding profusely and looked broken. Bella came up beside us and handed Edward some napkins and hand towels.

The boy was standing there in open-mouthed shock letting the blood flow into his mouth. Edward was trying to stanch the flow, but he really needed to move him out of the way of the crowd. The crowd had gone completely silent in the aftermath. Looking around I saw what looked to be the dining room and catching Edward's attention pointed to it. He nodded and guided the boy towards it.

All of us made our way into the room and by all of us I mean Edward, the boy, Jamie, Bella and me. Sitting down in the chairs Edward asked Jamie “How old is he?” Clearly we were on the same page then.

Jamie furrowed his brow and said “Twenty-two, he's only a few months younger than me. He's in some of my classes at school.” Shit, really? I wasn't even sure I'd say the guy had even hit high school, he looked that young.

“What happened?” Edward asked Jamie.

“I don't know. That guy was messing with him and he kept trying to shove him off, but he wouldn't take no for an answer.” That was all he could give us in information.

“So do you know the other guy? Is he a friend of yours?” Edward asked him.

“No. I've never seen him before today, he must have come with someone else.” He replied. Then I saw Jamie's hand close in fists and his jaw clench in anger. There was a fire in his eyes that I didn't expect to be there.

Edward finished cleaning up the boy and reset his nose. Bella had gotten some ice from the kitchen for him and asked Jamie “Do you have any clean shirts? He can't wear that one, it has blood all over it.”

Jamie nodded his head and said “Yeah, top right drawer of my dresser in my bedroom.” Bella led the boy away from us and towards the bedroom. I wondered why he didn't get it himself since he lived here, but he looked too angry at the moment to say anything about it.

Edward looked down at his hands and said “I need to go wash my hands. Jazz, keep Jamie company.” I nodded my head, clearly whatever party mood Jamie had been in was out the window at the moment.

Edward left us alone in the dining room and Jamie rounded on me saying “If you hurt Edward, I'll hunt you down and kill you.” Blinking at him I was taken aback. Where was this coming from?

“I don't plan on it, Jamie. I broke all the rules for him, I love him.” I responded honestly.

“Good. He's been a good friend to me and I don't want to see him hurt. The only person that has the power to hurt him the most right now is you.” Jamie said to me. Then looking me right in the eyes he asked “Did Edward tell you how we met?”

Shaking my head no I said “No, he told me it was your story to tell. That you would tell me if you wanted me to know.”

Smiling at me he said “Ah good, he can keep his mouth shut when it comes to important things. He doesn't always do a good job of that.” I laughed, it was true.

Jamie started to tell me his sob story and I wondered how he was so happy now. He told me “I was kicked out of my house when I was barely sixteen. My parents and my younger sisters came home one day and caught me letting this guy fuck me. They were horrified, that wasn't the way I ever wanted them to find out about me. My parents kicked me out saying they couldn't have that around my sisters and so I had nowhere to go. Edward, at least, had you.” Taking a shaky breath he continued “I was living on the street and fucking anyone that would buy me food pretty much. Jasper, I was selling myself for food.” I tried to cover up my shock, but it was difficult.

“Edward found me outside of one of the gay clubs, I knew I could find someone there to buy me food. I was young and some people liked that fact and took advantage of it. I thought Edward might be the same when he approached me. I didn't know I looked homeless and filthy. When he 'picked me up' he asked if I was hungry and of course I said yes, so he got me something to eat and I tried to reciprocate with sex. He shot me down. I was so mortified that I tried to run away, but he's fast.” He smiled a little at that, I smiled encouragingly. “He caught up to me and somehow managed to get me to tell him why I was living this way. I didn't know he'd have any idea what it was like to be kicked out of your house, he seemed so normal and put together. He introduced me to Sam and Greg, they'd been together for fifteen years and they wanted to adopt a kid, but were having trouble doing so. Anyway, they took me in and I've been here ever since.” Holy crap! I was more grateful for my parents in that moment than I'd ever been before. I knew Edward and I would have to tell them we were together soon, I was terrified and excited at the same time.

Before I could respond to anything he'd said Jamie jumped up from his chair and said “I have to get back to my party.” I thought he was just doing that so he didn't have to hear any stupid platitudes that I was sure people gave him if he told them that.

Going back out into the large overcrowded living room I saw Bella chatting with a group of people, but Edward wasn't among them. Scanning the crowd I finally saw him talking to a blonde guy and smiling, my stomach clenched tight in jealousy. Walking up behind him I put a possessive arm around his waist, he was mine. Edward turned his head and smiled at me putting his own arm around me and pulled me closer. “Hey Jasper, this is Mike, a friend of mine.” Edward told me.

“Hi.” I said barely pushing it past my lips. The only thing that kept going through my head was 'this guy is blonde, this guy is blonde, this guy is blonde.'

“Jasper, he's a lawyer.” Edward told me and I looked at him confused. “He's going to get all the paperwork to be each other's power of attorney completely legal and watertight. He agreed to meet us to go over it when we could both do it together since our schedules are so different and I don't want to wait until school's out to do it.”

“Oh, okay.” I said and Mike flashed us a brilliant smile.

“Well, I'm going to go find my brother, see you guys later.” Mike said and walked away.

Staring after him I said “Edward, were you ever with that guy?” Shit, shit, shit. I just couldn't keep my mouth shut today, I felt like I was taking on Edward's characteristics. I could feel Edward's shoulders shaking with laughter.

“No, Jasper. Mike is straight, but his brother isn't.” Edward told me. I didn't even bother to ask if he'd been with his brother then, I didn't know why I was trying to torture myself this way.

“Edward, I think I've had enough excitement for one party. Can we go home now?” I asked him, my mind still hadn't wrapped around everything that happened tonight.

“Sure, let's just let Jamie and Bella know and we'll go.” Then he kissed my neck making me want to be home in bed already before he turned to look for them in the crowd.

Spotting Bella in the crowd we worked our way over to her and told her that we were leaving. She smiled and hugged both of us. Jamie came up to us and asked “You're leaving already?”

“Yeah, we're both pretty tired.” Edward told him and Jamie looked between the both of us and laughed.

“You know the party is just getting started. It's not like I care what you do here, I already know what you've been up to.” Jamie said still laughing. Man, I just wanted to fucking go home. This place was interesting and so was Jamie, but I was exhausted. I wasn't used to parties quite like this one, one of the benefits of not having very many friends.

“No Jamie, we are going home.” Edward told him firmly.

“Okay, whatever, act like old people then.” Jamie told him. Then he turned towards Bella and with a twinkle in his eye asked “So... we're on for Monday, right?”

Bella looked baffled as she said “For what?”

“For the nude pictures you're gonna take of me.” Jamie said nearly bursting with laughter.

She snorted and said “Yeah... no... Jamie, we might be friends, but we aren't that good of friends.”

“I'll do it.” A male voice said and Jamie spun round at the guy that spoke. Jamie stood there speechless and utterly still. I couldn't believe it, he hadn't been that way since I first saw him. The guy wasn't facing us, but all I noticed about him was that he was tall and lanky with red hair and he wasn't really all that much to look at. I looked at Bella and Edward to see if they wondered why Jamie was standing there stock-still just staring at the guy. Bella didn't seem all that surprised, but Edward did. Then the guy spoke and said “Bella, come find me if you want me.” He didn't look at Bella when he said this, he was staring right back at Jamie. Finally he looked away and turned his head to look at Bella before walking back into the crowd. Both Edward and I took a sharp intake of breath. He wasn't much to look at, but his eyes, they were aqua and not by contacts either.

Jamie rounded on Bella and asked her sharply “Who was that?”

Bella smiled and shrugged “That was my friend from work. His name is Grant.” Jamie had a far away expression on his face and Bella said “I don't know if you'd like him or not.”

Scowling at her he asked “Why not?”

“Because he actually dates people before sleeping with them, and after what you said about your last boyfriend I don't know how well that would work out for you.” Bella told him seriously. He only looked at her like she was crazy and took off in the direction Grant had left.

Bella shook her head and said “He thinks he's gonna break him, but he won't. It'll probably be the other way around.”

Edward said “Maybe that's just what he needs then.” I laughed at them, maybe that would be good for him.

“Edward, let's please go home now.” I said and we hugged Bella once more and made our way out the door.

AN: I removed part of this chapter because I thought it would be too much for some of you. It's something my friends and I have discussed before, but I decided I wasn't about to be one of the people to plant that seed in your minds. Too bad, it was written well.