Strange Desire: Chapter Twelve

Strange Desire: Chapter Twelve

AN: Okay, so I said this chapter would be them telling their parents. They had other ideas, so don't blame me. Anyway, hopefully next chapter will be it. Thank you Jen for telling me to keep part of this chapter, for letting me know it was okay.

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JPOV

Edward kept his hand in mine the remainder of the time we were out on the docks. He was trying so hard to be strong, not to hide, but I could tell it was difficult for him. My personal experiences with being out were nowhere near as traumatic as his. His own parents threw him out of the house for it. Who does that? Shouldn't you love your kid anyway, even if you don't agree? I hoped that when we told our parents it would go better, that he'd have a different experience with it, a happier one.

“Let's get something to eat, I'm hungry.” Edward said interrupting my thoughts. I hadn't thought I was hungry, but my stomach's loud growl proved otherwise.

“Okay, where do you want to go?” I asked him.

“I don't know, just somewhere. Why don't we see what's over on that first street.” He said leading me there.

We walked into the first restaurant we came across. Surprise, surprise, it was a seafood restaurant. As we were on the water I really didn't expect anything else. Seating ourselves at the bar we looked over the menu and quickly placed our order. Edward had long since dropped my hand, but he turned to me on the bar stool so our knees were touching. The bartender handed over our drinks and raised his brow at us, but he didn't say anything.

After we were done eating Edward said “The food here was good. I think we should tell Emmett.” Then he laughed.

“You think so? I wonder how someone that eats so much can be that picky.” I commented. We paid our bill and walked out of the restaurant. “Edward, why is he the only friend that came to visit me in the hospital? I was there a week. I would have at least expected him to bring Rosalie.” I said saddened, I felt alone.

Edward laughed at me, hard. “Jasper, he wasn't the only one that came to see you. Rosalie came, so did Bella, Jacob, and Jamie.”

Looking at him confused I said “Are you sure? I don't remember them being there.”

“I'm sure. They all came to visit you more than once. You looked at them without seeing them. You didn't hear anything they asked you, at all.” Edward explained. Well, shit. How did I not remember something like that? Now I felt bad, like I needed to apologize to them.

We were now just walking around downtown, but I was getting tired rapidly. I wasn't too sure my legs would be able to keep up anymore. “Edward, let's go home. I think I've had enough for today.”

Smiling at me Edward said “Okay Jazz, you managed more today than I thought you would anyway.” Looking around Edward pulled me close to him and said “But before we go I have to kiss you.”

Shocked I asked “Now? After what happened? In front of all these people?”

“Yes, Jasper. I need to do it.” He told me almost pleading with me. Then his lips met mine, they were soft and warm and sent my blood racing. I grabbed his hips and pulled him closer to me. He felt good against me. Pulling away from me panting Edward smoothed one of my unruly locks that had fallen into my face. We stood there for a good five minutes, unmoving.

Deciding it was time to go we pulled apart completely and walked to his car. Driving home I couldn't help but remember Edward giving me a blow job the morning I got sick. “What are you grinning about over there, Jasper?” Edward questioned me.

“Hmm... you, me and the backseat.” I said and leaned over to kiss his neck. He chuckled and continued driving. Damn it. I wouldn't mind repeating that morning.

Hoping he'd give me what I wanted I began lifting my shirt up. “Jasper, what exactly do you think you are doing?” Edward asked glancing at me.

“Trying to turn you on.” I stated.

Snorting at me Edward said “You already do. Now stop that, I want to be at home with you, no interruptions.”

Huffing I said “Fine.” Then I let go of my shirt and crossed my arms across my chest. Edward laughed at me. He fucking laughed.

“What the fuck is wrong with you?” I hissed.

Trying to regain control of his laughter he said “You. You're acting like a girl.”

“No, I'm not. Drive the fuck home then so I can fuck you up the ass. I'll show just how much of a girl I'm not.” I said narrowing my eyes into slits.

Edward chortled at that and said “I can't wait.” Fucker.

When we finally got out of the car I pushed him against it and attacked him right there. “Jasper, please. Let's take this to our apartment.” Growling at him I let go and grabbed his hand nearly running. I didn't even know I had that much energy left in me.

Getting into the elevator I continued my attack on his lips. The elevator opened on our floor and we stepped out to see Emmett and Rosalie leaving their apartment, they greeted us. I, on the other hand, was rude and said “Emmett, Rose, sorry, but no time to talk right now. I have a boyfriend to fuck.”

Edward's face turned bright red, Emmett spluttered at us, Rosalie only laughed. I was just trying to get the front door open. “Great, I'm happy to see you got your memory back. We'll see you later.” Rosalie said nearly giggling now.

Pushing the door open I pulled Edward through and slammed it in Emmett and Rosalie's faces. Shoving Edward up against the door I crashed my lips to his. Pushing me away from him he asked “Was it really necessary to be that rude?” Yes. Yes, it was. I needed Edward and I needed him now.

My answer was to shove him back up against the door as my lips attacked his neck and my hands unbuckled his belt. Pulling it off I threw it across the room and worked to get his jeans unbuttoned and unzipped. Edward's head fell back against the door and he moaned as my hand snaked its way into his boxers. I pushed both his pants and his boxers down and Edward kicked off his shoes so he could step out of them. Tugging his shirt upwards Edward lifted up his arms so I could take it off. “Jazz, bedroom, now.” Edward panted.

Shaking my head no I told him firmly “No, I plan on fucking you against this door.” Edward groaned at me. His hands pulled the hem of my shirt up, so I raised my arms to get it off. Kicking off my own shoes I quickly dropped my pants and boxers as well. My lips met his again and I pressed my body close to his.

Growling at him, at the way he felt Edward said “I love how I can feel that deep rumble of your chest against my own.” I growled at him again as our hands roamed over each others bodies. “Jasper, I need to feel you inside me.” Edward pleaded.

“Stay here.” I commanded. Walking to my room I could feel Edward's eyes watching my ass the entire time. Grabbing a condom and the bottle of lube I decided to take my socks off while I was in there. Then I walked back to Edward, back to my home. His eyes raked over my body as I did the same to him. He'd removed his socks too. I almost laughed at that, but managed to hold it in.

Dropping the condom and the lube to the floor I took Edward's wrists in my hands and pulled them over his head. Kissing his neck I made my way to his ear and said “I want you. Do you want me too?” He nodded his head as I nipped at his earlobe. I smiled and said “Good boy.”

Letting go of his wrists I moved my hands down to his ass and pressed his hard cock against my own. Squeezing his ass first I slowly made my way to the crack of his ass before one of my fingers circled his hole. Edward moaned at the sensation, so I took my hand away. He whimpered at me and I grinned bringing my fingers to my mouth. Licking and sucking on them I watched as Edward's breathing picked up. I moved my hand behind him to push a finger inside pumping him feeling the warmth there. Then I pushed another finger inside as my other hand found its way down his chest, down his trail of bronze hair across his abdomen, down to his bronze curls. Tugging at his balls Edward writhed against the door and moaned “Fuck.”

Kissing him again I pulled my fingers out of his ass, then stepped back. His eyes were heavy-lidded as he watched me. Turning around I bent over to grab the bottle of lube and the condom so he could get a good look at my ass. Edward groaned at me and said “Jazz... please.”

Turning back to him I smiled and handed him the bottle of lube. Tearing the condom packet open I rolled it over my cock. He poured the lube into his hand and reached out to cover my cock in it. This time it was my turn to moan at his touch. Shoving his back to the door again I picked up his legs at the back of his knees until they were wrapped around my waist. I rubbed my cock along the crack of his ass a few times before plunging in. “Fuck.” I didn't know if that word came from me or from him or both of us. This is where I belonged. I was glad I'd found my way back home to him, that all of me had come back.

Keeping my hands under his ass and his back against the door I thrust inside him making him moan. His own hands were on my shoulders, although one did eventually come to the back of my neck and tugged at my hair. My lips found his neck and kissed and nipped along it. At one point I bit him hard at the juncture of his neck and his collarbone causing him to cry out. He apparently liked that as his walls clenched around me making me moan. “Faster...” Edward breathed. One of his hands fell between us and gripped his cock using his pre-cum and our combined sweat as lubrication.

Picking up my own pace I felt my balls start to tighten and my stomach clench before letting go. My forehead fell to his shoulder as I tried to catch my breath. My legs were weak and trembling, I was exhausted. Letting his own legs go I lowered Edward's to the floor. I turned my head to kiss his lips before dropping to my knees. My legs couldn't take standing anymore. Pushing Edward's hand away from his cock I licked it tasting the saltiness of our sweat combined together. Wrapping my lips around his cock I pushed down tonguing him all the way. Edward moaned and put his hands in my hair as I put mine on his hips. He took control and fucked my mouth as I teased him with my tongue. I could feel his body tense up right before he released himself in my waiting, hungry mouth. Swallowing his cum down first I sat back on my heels.

I had to let him go before I fell over. That took nearly every ounce of energy I had left out of me. Damn it, damn it, damn it, I didn't want to feel like that. I didn't want to be that weak, that tired. Edward slid down the door in front of me waiting for me to gather some strength. I wasn't sure I had it in me.

Crawling over to me Edward pulled me into his arms and I leaned my head against his shoulder. Leaning back so I was on the floor I brought Edward down with me, his head resting over my heart. I was sure he could hear it skip a beat at being so close to him.

Closing my eyes I thought about going home, about telling our parents, about their reaction. I didn't think they'd have too negative of one, but I was wary. You never knew what could happen and if it didn't work out between Edward and I, then what? Once the words were out there they were permanent. You can't take something like that back. What if they wanted to know if we still liked women? Were they going to try and pull us apart so that we'd be 'normal'? My heart started to race as I began panicking over what might happen. Perhaps those were irrational fears, I hadn't had them before, but with coming fully out with it I couldn't help myself.

Edward lifted his head and looked at me saying “Jasper, why is your heart racing?” I didn't want to tell him, he had a hard enough time dealing with his own fears.

I just shook my head and said “It's nothing.”

“It's not nothing, Jazz.” Edward said and kissed the jugular in my neck. “I can feel your blood racing right now.” His hand cupped my face and he whispered “Just tell me.”

I couldn't look at him. I knew if I did it would break my heart and I wouldn't get the words out. Slowly I stumbled out the words, words that again I couldn't take back if he reacted badly to them. “Look at me, Jasper.” Edward commanded and my eyes opened watching him carefully. He seemed relieved. That wasn't the reaction I was expecting, at all. “Jasper, this is normal, how you are feeling right now. I honestly have been a little worried that you hadn't fully come to terms with this, with us. Almost like I was good time until something better came along.”

“Edward, I love you, but I'm terrified.” I pleaded with him to understand.

Straddling me Edward leaned his head down to my ear and said “I'm terrified too. Although I want you to know that I will love you the rest of my life. I'll be with you as long as you want me.” Then he kissed my neck and pulled away looking at me.

Taking a shaky breath I said “I know you will. I want to be with you for good too. I just can't help worrying right now.” I hadn't meant to say all that, to let him know just how far I'd fallen for him.

Edward's body stilled above mine. Shit, shit, shit. I'd said too much. Getting off me he sat down and pulled me up so I was sitting in front of him. “Jasper, do you mean that?” He questioned me while passing a hand over his face.

Looking at him I decided I had two choices: back out and try and laugh it off or be honest. Whether it was to my own demise or not I was always honest. “Yes, I mean that. I want to be with you, but I'm scared.”

Edward stared at me, speechless. It took him a good five minutes to move. I was becoming uncomfortable at the stare and silence and wished I could go back in time and eat my words. Finally, finally, Edward blinked and moved towards me wrapping his arms around me. My head lay on his shoulder and my own arms went around his waist. He held me there tightly, so I couldn't even twitch. I wasn't entirely sure, but I thought I felt something wet in my hair, his tears. What was he crying over? I was better, I loved him, so what was the problem? Jasper, you're an idiot, that's why he's crying, dumb-ass. I tried pulling away from him so I could see his face, no such luck.

We stayed locked in our embrace for a good while before Edward finally relaxed his grip on me. I sighed and let go of him. He got up and walked away from me, leaving me on the floor. Where the fuck was he going? I couldn't get up from here, I was too weak. Eventually returning to my side he removed the condom I still miraculously had on very carefully and cleaned me up before leaving again to get rid of the evidence of our time together.

Coming back to me Edward leaned down and put his hands under my arms to pull me up. “Time to go to bed, Jazz.” He told me.

“I don't want to go to bed.” I argued.

“Jasper, you can't even walk by yourself anymore. It's time for you to get in bed.” He maintained.

Sighing I said “I don't want to be in a bed anymore, if I don't have to be. Being in one for a week was enough for me. Just let me lay down on the couch or something instead.” I battled.

“Fine, Jasper. Now pick up one foot in front of the other.” Edward commanded and I realized I hadn't done anything but stand still. Tiredly I placed one foot tentatively on the floor, I didn't know if my legs would hold me up at all anymore. Walking very carefully I managed to sit down on the couch.

“I'll be right back, Jasper.” Edward said before leaving me, again. For some reason this bothered me more than it normally would have.

Edward reappeared again wearing pajama pants and had another pair in his hands for me. How the fuck he thought I was going to get those on I didn't know. Sitting on the floor he placed one of my feet in each leg before shimmying them up. He had to pick my hips up to get them pulled up over my ass, I couldn't do it. I was wondering why he even bothered with them. Then I watched as he picked up our clothes that had been thrown haphazardly around the room. Was he expecting someone? I couldn't figure out why he couldn't just sit down and just be with me. “Edward, please sit down with me.” I snapped out harshly at him. I hadn't meant it to come out that way, it just did.

Inhaling deeply he nodded and sat beside me. He didn't seem like he knew what to do with himself. “Edward, what the fuck is your problem?” I huffed.

“Nothing, really. I just know you are still dealing with some anger and confusion left from that illness. I'm trying to stay out of your way.” Edward replied.

Actually angry now I hissed “Well, that isn't helping, it's just making it worse.” Edward sighed and looked at his hands. Yeah, that's going to make it better. Then I watched as he looked at me and smiled. What the fuck?

Picking up his phone he said “We have people to call.” I groaned. I hoped he did all the talking, I wasn't in the mood. Edward sat on the end of the couch pulling me with him until my head ended up in his lap. Well, at least that was better than just walking out of the room.

Edward called Bella and Jacob first. As the phone rang he ran the fingers of his other hand through my hair absentmindedly. I think I might have actually purred at that, that was a new one. I must have because Edward looked down at me, his eyes wide. He had to shake his head when the phone was picked up on the other end. “Hey, Bella. I just wanted to let you know Jasper got his memory back last night.” Edward told her. He was rolling his eyes at her as though she could see him before he said “No, I couldn't tell you before now. We had... catching up to do.” I felt a laugh bubble up in me and quickly quashed it. “I don't know. Let me ask.” He told her. Looking down at me he asked “Do you feel up to hanging out with them tomorrow?”

Thinking it through I decided that I didn't. “No. Why don't we do something with them the weekend after we get back from home.” He nodded at me telling her what I said. My main reason for not wanting to see them or anyone else was the irrational anger that still lingered. It wouldn't be fair to Edward if I fucked it up with his friends before we even knew each other. They wouldn't know or realize that wasn't the way I normally was. Now Emmett and Rosalie were a different story. I was sure they could take whatever shit I threw at them and would give it right back if they felt they had to. Bella, on the other hand, I was sure would cry. Jacob I didn't know much about at all. Jamie might be able to handle it, but I wasn't willing to take that risk. Our upcoming trip home was making the anger and irritation worse.

After calling Jamie as well and getting no answer Edward got off the phone and looked down at me. His eyes softened and he ran his other hand down my chest. “Are you ready to go to bed yet?” He asked me. No, I didn't want to fucking move, at all. My relaxed yawn showed otherwise. Edward helped me up and back to bed. Lying down behind me he put his arm around my waist and kissed my neck. “Good night, Jazz. I love you.” Edward breathed.

“Good night, Edward. I love you, too.” I replied back before letting my eyelids close and relaxing into my lover.