Strange Desire: Chapter Three

Chapter Three

AN: Hmm... this story has morphed into a real one, something I wasn't expecting. Well, I hope you still enjoy it. I think it's become my new obsession.

JPOV

Characters belong to Stephenie Meyers although she would not approve of doing this to them.

Holy Shit! Did I just kiss Edward in the street? In front of everyone? Yeah, I guess I did. I was a little shocked at my own boldness. When I looked at Edward I realized I was glad I'd done it. The happy look on his face was worth it.

We continued walking downtown just being together. I thought about our time in the shower and grinned. We would definitely have to have a repeat performance of that. Trying to distract myself from my growing erection at the thought I remembered our breakfast conversation. Edward had asked me about that night he'd gotten into a bar fight. I had suppressed that memory for so long I had forgotten it was there until he jogged my mind. Maybe I had liked Edward in a sexual way longer than just this week then and I'd been denying it, suppressing it, pretending it didn't exist. I always did that with unpleasant or uncomfortable things. Things I just didn't want to deal with.

Bringing me out of my thoughts Edward asked me “Do you want to grab something to eat?” By this time it was the middle of the afternoon and we hadn't eaten since breakfast.

“Sure. Do you want it to be a surprise?” I asked him, meaning that we would just randomly go to the next place we passed whether we'd been there before or not. It was a nice way of finding new places to go.

“Why not? I'm all for trying new things and I know you are.” Edward said barely hiding a smirk before laughing.

“Yeah, yeah. Let's just go and eat somewhere.” I said pointedly ignoring his teasing.

The next place we walked by was a steak place. Not exactly original, but we'd never been there at least. Shrugging we walked in and waited to be seated. Everything was good, the food, the atmosphere, the drinks, except the waitress that was laying the flirting on a little too thick at both of us. Once when she walked away I turned to Edward and reached across grabbing his hand intertwining our fingers. Edward looked at me curiously, but didn't let my hand go. The waitress came back and that was the first thing she saw before her mouth formed an 'o'. She shook her head and dropped our food off before walking away mumbling something about 'all the cute ones are gay'. Both Edward and I heard it and laughed. Technically neither one of us was gay, but I wasn't about to encourage her letting her know we liked women as well. Right now I couldn't even think about being with a woman. My mind was entirely too preoccupied with Edward and the way he looked at me and the way he smelled and the way he smiled his crooked smile. Damn it. I was fucking screwed. I'd never felt this way about anyone, ever.

Edward was grinning at me from ear to ear. I wasn't sure I liked where this was going, he looked mischievous. As I opened my mouth to ask him about it I felt a socked foot between my legs against my crotch. Shit, shit, shit. Really? He was going to do that here? Then I felt him press it gently against me as I started to get hard at the touch. I glared at him and tried to open my mouth to speak. Fuck. Forget what anyone else thought, I was going to enjoy this moment. Leaning my head back I closed my eyes and I was sure I let out an audible moan as he continued rubbing his foot against my cock. He got a little faster and harder and my breathing sped until we were rudely interrupted by the waitress. Edward stopped what he was doing and had a wholly innocent look on his face. Groaning at the loss I glared at him and the waitress. Then the waitress leaned over to me and whispered in my ear “Others can see what was going on underneath this table. It's a good thing I didn't let it continue before you two got kicked out. Now if you'll excuse me, I'll go get your check and you two can do whatever you want. Somewhere else.” I gaped at her. Edward gave me a confused look and I shook my head and mouthed 'later'.

We paid our bill and Edward wanted to continue walking around. Fuck him. He was the one that got me all turned on. Edward looked down at my crotch when we got outside and asked in my ear “Do you need me to take care of that for you?” I growled at him in answer.

Edward chuckled and said “I'll take that as a yes.”

Walking toward our apartment I wasn't sure I was going to last that long. My eyes kept darting around trying to find somewhere to be alone. Searching, but not finding anywhere I groaned. This was painful. I should think about something else. If we got back to the apartment and he tried to take care of it we wouldn't be there more than a couple of minutes as aroused as I was already. He was the only person to have quite that effect on me.

Edward's cellphone started ringing and I groaned internally. The fact that he answered it now only proved my suspicions that it was the hospital needing him to come in, even though he wasn't supposed to be working. He looked at me apologetic and said “I'm sorry, Jazz. I have to go in.” I sighed, it wasn't like I didn't already know this is what his life was like before I'd chosen to be with him. Although being interrupted in what I'd hoped would be private moments was a new thing to me. I supposed I'd have to get used to it if he's what I wanted. Sliding my eyes towards him I looked at him and decided fuck, he's the only one I wanted.

Walking as quickly as we could we got in the apartment and I didn't care what he was doing at that moment, my too tight pants had to come off, now. They felt like they were cutting off my circulation. I sighed loudly once they were removed. Hearing a sharp intake of breath I turned around not realizing Edward would still be there. I thought he would've picked up his scrubs and walked out already. He was looking at my apparent tent in my boxers. “Edward, you have to go. I can take care of this myself. I don't think it'll take long anyway.” I was trying to get him to go now, the longer he stood there staring the more painful my erection got.

“I don't think I can work right now without some sort of release.” Edward said right before shoving his own pants and boxers down and letting me see his cock. Two long strides forward and I was pressing him against the door. Kissing his lips letting him feel my tongue against his I thrust my hips against his cock. Edward moaned and then I felt his hands pushing my boxers down. I didn't even notice if they were all the way off or not.

“Edward...” I breathed before bringing my hand to my mouth and spitting in it before lowering it between us and grasping his cock I started to pump him while still kissing him. My own release would have to wait, he had to go soon.

He must have been just as turned on as I had been because it didn't take him long before I heard “Jasper... fuck... I'm so close.” Instead of letting him making a mess on himself I knelt down and took his cock into my mouth and sucked him, licking the head. He didn't last more than three thrusts before shooting his hot cum down my throat.

Swallowing him down first I stood and said “Go. You've gotta go.” Edward looked into my eyes then and his expression was unreadable before he dropped to his knees in front of me. Taking me into his mouth I hissed, I was incredibly sensitive at that moment. Placing my hands in his hair I fucked his warm wet mouth hurriedly. He had to go. Damn it. “I'm coming, Edward...” I barely rasped those words out before I was shooting my own load down his throat.

Still standing there I closed my eyes in contentment. I felt Edward's hands roam back up my body as he stood, pulling my boxers back up as he went. Leaning into me he kissed my lips before nibbling my earlobe at the same time saying “I had to feel your cock inside me once more today. It felt so incredible in my ass this morning. I hope you know just how good you make me feel.” No, I didn't. If it was anything like he made me feel though, then wow. He pulled his boxers and pants up before going into his bedroom.

Groaning I was already missing him. I kept standing there unable to move or speak. When he came back out he kissed me once before saying “I love you, Jazz.” I didn't think I'd ever get tired of hearing that, knowing that he meant it.

Leaving me all alone in the apartment and at least satisfied for the moment I went back to my room to check the students papers they were supposed to e-mail to me. Sighing I sat there and looked around my room. Was I supposed to stay in my own room? Or were we now going to share the same one? Shrugging I decided it didn't matter right now, we could figure that out later.

Checking my e-mail I waded slowly and painfully through them. Most of them spouted off total bullshit and drivel. Some of it was too boring even for me and I actually liked history. The others I couldn't even read, the writing was so horrible I couldn't even attempt to understand what they were trying to say. Were my classes full of inbreeds? How did these people even graduate high school? I was close to drawing a circle on the wall next to my head with an arrow pointing to it saying 'bang head here, repeatedly'. Was my class really as boring as the shit my students sent me? I didn't think it was. Hopefully some student out there could write something better, but so far I hadn't come across them.

The crickets were chirping in my head and my eyes glazed over. I couldn't read anything anymore, the computer screen was just a blur. Closing my eyes I rubbed a hand over them trying to wake myself up. Apparently it didn't help, because the next thing I knew my arms and head were on my desk in an awkward position and my neck and shoulders were killing me.

My eyes were heavy as I tried to pry them open and I finally realized why I'd woken up in the first place. Edward had his arms around my shoulders, nuzzling my neck, whispering my name trying to wake me up. Sighing I tried to stir a little and realized even more muscles hurt than my neck and shoulders. Damn it. Why couldn't I have woken up and gone to bed before turning my body into a pretzel? Finally after lifting my head enough to look at Edward he said “Hey sleepyhead, don't you think you should sleep in a bed?”

Glaring at him in my 'I just woke up, don't talk to me' way I sat up further. Eventually I unfolded myself enough to sit up straight and stretched my arms over my head. “Come on, Jazz, come to bed with me. We both need real sleep. I know I need it.” Edward said reaching for my hand and pulling me up. I was too tired to do anything but comply, as if I would do anything else anyway.

Edward led us to my bed and we lay there side by side facing each other. I watched as his eyes drifted close and his breathing evened telling me he'd fallen asleep. Hmm... wonder what time it is or how long I slept? Turning over I looked at the alarm clock, it said 3:53 am. About to turn over again I felt an arm around my waist and Edward pressing his body to mine, his warm breath on my neck. Sighing in contentment I finally let sleep overtake me too.

Beep. Beep. Beep.

Where was that fucking noise coming from? Finally rousing myself awake I realized it's my damn alarm clock. I wanted to throw it against the wall. When I looked at the time I also realized it was set earlier than I actually needed to get up for work. I must have left the setting for when I worked out in the morning. Sometimes Edward and I did this together right before I left for work and right as he got home on the days he worked nights, not today though. Edward couldn't possibly be awake enough to do that right now and I still had kinks everywhere.

Checking to make sure Edward wasn't awakened by the noise I got out of bed. Taking a hot shower I let the warmth loosen the muscles. It felt good to just relax and not be in a hurry. Getting my clothes I dressed as quietly as I could before I turned to see Edward sleeping peacefully. He had a slight smile on his face. Unable to contain myself I kissed that smile lightly and saw it widen before I walked out of the room.

Fixing breakfast this morning was a quiet affair and I enjoyed the peace. I chose not to cook anything and just got water to drink. Sitting down on the couch I ate slowly preparing myself for another day filled with a job I hated. Didn't everyone hate their jobs though? Well Edward didn't, he told me so. Even if it was a job I liked with occasional bad days that would be an improvement over this one. I guess I would stick with my plan to start writing and looking elsewhere for a place to work, one without idiotic students.

As I was about to open the door I felt arms around my waist and heard Edward ask “Why didn't you wake me up?”

Turning to look at him I said “You looked too peaceful and you deserve to actually be left alone to sleep, Edward.”

When he frowned at me I knew I'd made a mistake, he wanted to spend time with me before I left. Reaching a hand out to his cheek I said “I'm sorry. Next time I'll wake you up.” Then I tilted my head forward and kissed him softly and said “Now go back to bed. I hope I'll see you when I get home.” I knew that was probably wishful thinking.

Edward cupped my face and pulled me back to him to kiss me deeply. When we pulled away he had a wicked smile on his face and I wondered what that was about. He looked excited about something. Fuck it. I'd find out later. I was already going to be late for work if I didn't hurry. “Bye Jazz, have a fun day at work.” Edward said teasing me, knowing I hated that place. I knew he hated that I worked there as well.

When I got to work I found out I had another meeting with my boss. What the fuck was wrong now? I know it's not like he knew I hated this job, I was good at pretending anything. A couple of classes went by before our little 'meeting'. Knocking on his office door tentatively he called me in and told me to have a seat. He looked grim. Shit, shit, shit. Why was I here again? Oh, that's right, I didn't even have a fucking clue.

He put his elbows on the desk and put his hands under his chin before speaking, never a good sign. “Do you know why you are here?” He asked me staring through some of the thickest glasses I'd ever seen. It made him look like a bug and I had to bite my tongue to keep from laughing when that thought passed through my head.

“No, sir.” I answered politely.

“Well, it seems our last meeting didn't hold any sway with you, at all. Let me reiterate, you cannot touch one of the students.” The bug man stated menacingly. What the fuck was he talking about?

“Excuse me?” I choked out curious to know what the fuck he was talking about.

“It seems one of the female students has launched a complaint against you. That you touched her inappropriately and propositioned her for sex.” He said. The disturbing part was the fact that he thought he was telling the truth and that I was not the victim here.

I snorted. Probably not the best reaction at the time, but I couldn't help it.

“Do you think this is funny?” He asked me. “You could lose your job over this and any potential other ones.”

“No, sir. I know the implications of what you just said.” I told him seriously this time.

“Then why the nonchalance about it all?” He asked sitting back in his chair. “I'd like to hear what you say happened.”

“Well, first of all, I have absolutely no idea what or who you are talking about. Second of all, my boyfriend would be pretty pissed if he found out I was hitting on a girl.” Emphasizing the boyfriend part I hoped he'd get it. It's not like he knew my personal matters anyway. Sorry Edward for using you like that, I hope you can forgive me. Boyfriend didn't seem the right word for us, but I wasn't sure what would be.

“Ah... well that certainly changes things.” Mister Bug Man said. Hmm.... I don't think I'd ever be able to call him anything else ever again. “So how long have you known this guy?” He asked me genuinely curious. Fuck. He didn't need to know this.

Answering him regardless of not wanting too I said “ Since I was five. We've lived together a long time though.” No need to tell him we'd only had sex over the weekend, nor had we ever really dated at all. It wasn't any of his business anyway.

“Hmm... okay. Well you can go now. I think I'll have to have a chat with that student again.” He said waving me out the door.

Phew. I was glad that's over, at least for now. It felt like an interrogation.

Going back to class I know I took out what happened on my students. Fuck. Although I did give them another week to write better papers than the ones they turned in. In my mind this was generous as most of them were going to fail it if what I read last night was any indication. “Some of your papers were horrible, make that most of them. Please think before you send me this again. The English lab is there to help for a reason as well, please use it. I couldn't even understand half of what I was sent.” This was said at the end of each class and I heard a collective groan from my students. I was ready to get the hell out of there. I highly doubted I'd get anything better back, but I was always hopeful.

Bursting with energy and irritation I decided to go to the gym and work it off after work. It needed to be done anyway. Imagining Mister Bug Man's face on the punching bag was therapeutic. Thinking about taking a shower at the gym I decided to forgo it. I was going home anyway.

Walking into the house the silence was deafening. Where was Edward? I knew he should be asleep here somewhere, but I saw no one. Did he get called into the hospital early? Forgetting it I stepped into the shower as soon as I'd removed my clothes.

Standing there under the spray I let the warm water wash away the sweat and grime of the day. Thinking over that stupid meeting today I was so frustrated that I hit the tile wall with the side of my fist. Feeling an arm wrapped around my waist and another at my chest I jumped not realizing I wasn't alone anymore. “Jazz, what's wrong? Another bad day?” Pressing my back against his chest I groaned.

“You could say that again.” It was the only answer I could get out as Edward was kissing my neck and shoulders, soothing the tension there.

“Tell me all about it. I want to know.” Edward whispered into my skin. Fuck. What could I tell him? I couldn't concentrate with him touching me. Trying to turn around so I could face him, he wouldn't let me instead saying “No, tell me what happened. Let it go.” He continued kissing me stepping back a little and planting kisses on my back while I tried to get out my day through gritted teeth. When I got done telling him my day he turned me around. Cupping my face with his hands he pulled it towards him licking my lips before slipping his tongue between them touching them. His warm breath mingling with mine was a nice sensation and I pressed his body closer to mine. Our cocks touched, both erect, before Edward took a step back and got out of the shower.

“Where the fuck do you think you are going?” I asked him practically shouting.

His eyes twinkling he said “Work.” Oh, that fucker, he was paying me back for this morning.

“Come back here.” I shouted as he walked out the door.

“No, I'm already probably late.” He was still laughing as I heard the front door open and close. Damn it. I was going to have to take care of this myself. Groaning in frustration I took matters into my own hands and imagined it was Edward's hand on my cock, not mine. Closing my eyes I moaned as I recalled his lips on me. It didn't take long before I came hard crying out Edward's name. Hmm... that was new. I never called out other people's names in the middle of masturbating.

“Fuck.” When I heard Edward's voice I spun around in the shower nearly falling over. He was leaning against the doorway watching me. Gripping his own cock and running his hand over it I saw he was mostly dressed except for his pants and boxers at his knees. Looking right at me he cried out “Jasper...” before coming on his hand. I stepped out of the shower and walked towards him grabbing his hand licking the cum from it. “Jasper, I've always wanted to watch you do that.” Edward told me. Placing my hands on his shoulders I kissed his mouth hard.

“Never tease me like that again. Please.” I begged him.

Edward smirked at me and said “Not a chance. I enjoy it.” I growled at him and felt his cock twitch against me at the sound. “Now I've gotta go before I really am late. See you later, Jasper.” He kissed my lips again before pulling his boxers and pants back up. We might have to make a new rule inside the house to wear less clothes, they just got in the way. Walking away from me I noticed his ass and almost started to get hard again. No, damn it.

Realizing I hadn't actually washed my body with soap I stepped back into the shower and soaped up rinsing the suds off. Even after washing my body the smell of Edward still permeated the air. He smelled like rain or more accurately the forest right after a soaking rain. Getting out of the shower I laid down on my bed on the side Edward had slept on inhaling the traces that he'd been there. Fuck. This was pathetic. I wasn't some silly girl.

Annoyed I got up and put some clothes on. My eyes flashed to the computer and I shook my head. I wasn't about to try to get through that mess right now. Going to the kitchen I tried to find some food that wasn't too old to eat and a large glass of water. After my workout today that still wouldn't be enough water. Looking around I decided I'd eat in the living room. I needed background noise, so even if I didn't like what was on TV I could at least not feel entirely alone. Picking up the remote I turned the TV on and flipped through channels trying to find something non-irritating. It was a struggle. I finally landed on the music radio stations and just picked one of those, at least I didn't actually have to watch it. Settling down more comfortably I ate in peace, keeping my mind purposely blank.

Getting up to take my plate back to the kitchen and get more water a brown package caught my eye. How did I miss that before? It was on one of our chairs. Going to the kitchen first I came back and took a look at it wondering what it was. It had an envelope on top with my name. Opening the box I looked inside and there was a leather computer bag. What was I going to do with that? I didn't have a laptop. We were buying each other gifts now? Confused I picked up the bag realizing it was heavy. Unzipping the bag I looked inside and there in front of my eyes was a brand new laptop. I took it out and opened it staring at the screen. What the fuck was this all about? My heart started racing.

Setting it aside I took off the envelope and opened it. Edward had very obviously and painstakingly written out this note slowly. Most of the time I couldn't read anything he wrote anymore without going cross-eyed. Reading the note I started to calm down.

Jasper,

Breathe, don't freak out. I've been thinking about buying this for you for a long time. I would have bought it even if you said no to me. You need a place to work where you aren't tethered to a wall. It kills me to see you in the job that you hate and I thought this might get you one step closer to realizing your dream of becoming a writer.

PS I can't take it back. I spent most of the day making sure it had everything you needed on it so all you need to do is turn it on.

He was good. Now I couldn't do anything but take it. Damn it. Laptops were expensive and this one looked like an incredibly new one. One reason I didn't own a laptop is they were too easily broken. One fumble or one spill of water could permanently destroy the entire thing, they weren't durable. I'd better back up everything I put on here so I don't screw myself.

Turning the computer on I searched through it trying to figure out what was actually on it. My mind was drawing a blank when I thought about what to write. It was frustrating, a million ideas in my head and not one that would come out on paper. Maybe I needed to think about this a little longer and narrow down what I wanted to write about. Turning it off I placed it back in the bag and took everything back to my room. Laying down on my bed I thought about what I wanted to write about. Flipping over the smell of Edward assaulted my nostrils again. That's when it hit me. What I was going to write about. Two male soldiers that were also lovers in the middle of the civil war on opposing sides. That would definitely create enough conflict to make a story. Closing my eyes I just had to figure out how to make it happen, make it worth reading. I doubted it would be anything but tragic.

Waking up the next morning I felt a warm body next to me. Opening my eyes I saw Edward's green eyes close to my face startling me. He smiled and I felt his finger tracing my lips. I smiled back at him before his stomach growled loudly. I laughed and sat up. Taking his hand I led him to the table and made breakfast for the both of us. Setting it down in front of us we ate in silence for a few minutes before I said “Edward?”

“Yes?” He answered with one brow raised.

“Thanks. For the computer, I mean, and believing I can do it.” I said knowing he was my muse for the story I planned on writing.

“You're welcome. Now whenever you get close to finishing it I think you need to talk to Bella. She works for that publishing house, she can help you figure out what the hell you are supposed to do with it.” Edward told me. I frowned at him when he mentioned her name. I'd never had a problem with her before. It must be knowing Edward had also liked her. He saw the frown and picked up my hand kissing it saying “Jasper, you don't have anything to be jealous of. I've always loved you more, she even knew that. I just never let myself go down that road because I didn't think anything would ever happen between us.” I nodded taking a shaky breath. It was ridiculous to feel this way.

We finished eating and I watched as Edward tried cracking his neck. He looked tense and uncomfortable. “Bad night?” I asked him.

“No, just long and exhausting.” Edward answered me, his eyes drooping. Picking up his hand I pulled him to the couch and told him to lie down. I sat at one end with my legs out and apart with him between them.

“Scoot down a little. Enough that your head can lay flat.” I told him. “Oh, wait a minute. I'll be right back. Unbutton your shirt and pull your arms out of the sleeves.” I went back to my room to get a bottle of massage oil. One of my ex-girlfriend's had been a massage therapist.

Sitting back down behind him I warmed the oil in my hands and said “Edward, just relax and close your eyes. Don't try to help me.” Placing my hands under his shoulders I started massaging his upper back and shoulders. His shirt was still underneath him protecting the couch.

Edward groaned and said “Where did you learn to do that?” Fuck. I stiffened not wanting to tell him. He opened his eyes and waited patiently for the answer.

“I don't want to tell you. I'm afraid you'll get mad.” I answered.

“Just spit it out. I won't get mad.” He told me.

“A girl I used to date was a massage therapist.” I said and left it at that.

Closing his eyes again I picked up kneading him again as I seemed to have stopped during that conversation. “Jasper, it's okay. You don't have to hide things like that from me. Besides, I'm the one reaping the benefits of that right now.” He said opening his eyes again and tilting his head back looking at me smiling. I laughed, he knew just what to say to make me feel better.

“Close your eyes and relax again. It won't help if you don't relax.” I chided him. He sighed and closed his eyes again as I worked my fingers up the back of his neck and then the sides, digging into the knots there trying to make them loosen. When I got to his face I took a closer look at it than I ever had before, memorizing the feel of it underneath my hands. I worked the frown and stress lines from his face, as they eased I heard his breathing even. He needed this. Next I massaged his scalp making his already messy hair stand nearly on end. Knowing he'd finally fallen asleep I smoothed his hair back and kissed his now smooth forehead.

Not wanting to get up, but knowing I had to I moved my legs carefully so I didn't jostle Edward awake and stood up. Making it to my room quietly I got ready for the day. Another day of hell. When I got back to the living room Edward hadn't moved. I could clearly see the muscles of his chest and stomach and that line of bronze hair trailing downwards. Shaking my head I had to get out of here before I wanted to ravish him. I hoped he woke up soon and went to sleep in a real bed. Kneeling down in front of him before I left I placed one hand on his chest and licked the rim of his ear before whispering “I love you, Edward.” Then I kissed his cheek feeling the rough stubble under my lips before standing up and leaving.

When I got to work another student came to my class in the middle of it saying I had another meeting with my boss. What the fuck did he want now? Couldn't he just leave me alone to teach? I hated doing it, but he was making it worse.

All my students today got the same lecture as the ones from yesterday. “I expect to see improvements in the papers you send.” I told my last class of the day before going to see my boss again.

Sitting patiently for him to let me enter his office I chatted with the receptionist. She was clearly into me. I felt nothing. She finally told me to go in.

Standing there unwilling to sit down I waited. I didn't speak at all. Finally Mr Bug Man said “It seems the student with the complaint against you wants to contest that you are gay. She seemed to think it was impossible you had a boyfriend.” I held back rolling my eyes, something I picked up from my students.

“It's not impossible.” I told him, not adding anything else.

“Well, if I could meet him and see you two together then maybe I'd agree with you. As it stands right now you may be looking at suspension following an investigation and probable termination.” He said making me want to puke. Why was I bending over backwards for this job? Don't think that. You better not leave under suspicion, it'll only make things worse elsewhere.

“Fine then. When would you like to meet him?” I asked him, hoping Edward would be willing to come down here. I wasn't even sure if he was my boyfriend exactly.

“Sometime this week. That should be no problem?” He asked me.

“It's fine, just make it early in the morning or after my last class. He works in the ER and here lately mostly at night, so those are the best times to meet him awake.” I said and he seemed a little surprised that I came up with that answer. He must have thought I was lying about Edward.

“Good, how about tomorrow afternoon?” He asked me.

“Alright, Edward and I will meet you here.” I told him, hoping that Edward could and would come.

Leaving school I went directly home, not bothering to go to the gym. Maybe I'd run later tonight. Banging the door open to the apartment I strode in ripping off my tie and jacket and kicking off my shoes. I was in about the same mood I had been in when I caught Edward in a very private moment leading to us. Slamming the door I was walking towards my bedroom so angry that I didn't even see Edward sitting on the couch. He asked “Bad day at work?”

Instead of answering I turned and saw him wearing nothing but jeans on. Fuck me. Why wasn't he asleep? He didn't sleep most of the day yesterday either. “Why aren't you sleeping?” I snapped at him.

Edward stood up and came toward me saying “Because I'm not working tonight.” Then he spun me around and pressed his chest to my back. “Jasper, tell me what happened today that has you so riled up?” I grunted out what happened.

He kissed my neck then my earlobe, nipping at it. “Of course, I'll go with you tomorrow. You shouldn't get fired over something you didn't do.” I tilted my head back against his shoulder as my own shoulders felt some of the tension leave.

“Jazz, forget the outside world. We are here together, right now, just the two of us. No one exists but us.” Edward whispered in my ear before his hands roamed down to my waist pulling my shirt up. He kissed the back of my neck before starting on the other side.

“Edward, don't tease me today. I don't think I can take it.” I growled out.

Smiling against my neck he moved to my ear and breathed “I'm not teasing you today. Today you will be writhing under me as I fuck you senseless.” Fuck me.

“Oh, I intend too.” He said chuckling and I realized I must have said my last thought out loud.

His hands slowly unbuttoned my shirt from the bottom one and up. Why the hell was he going so slow? Once my shirt was opened his hands took their time running over the muscles of my chest and I thrust my ass against his. He was already erect so why wasn't he taking me already? He brought one of his fingers to my lips and traced them until I flicked my tongue out and licked it before sucking it into my mouth swirling my tongue over it. He moaned “Fuck, Jazz, do you know how fascinating it is to watch your pink tongue on my finger or feel it in your mouth?” Taking his finger from my mouth he brought it down to my nipple and rubbed the wet digit over me eliciting a moan from me.

Turning around I pressed my bare chest against his and took his bottom lip in mine, biting it gently. Kissing his throat down to his chest I took each of his nipples in turn, nibbling on them before working my way down. Following his happy trail I got to the button of his jeans and undoing it and unzipping his jeans I pushed them down. Edward was only wearing jeans today. Standing at attention for me I slowly lowered my head over his erection and felt his hands in my hair. “Jazz, that feels so good.” Going down as far as I could I came all the way back up and licked the head before going back down again. My hands had been on his ass, but I moved one of them to his balls and lightly tugged there. They started to tighten under me and Edward pushed me away saying “Not yet. I want to come inside you.”

Pulling me to my feet he stepped completely out of his jeans before leading me to his bedroom. Standing next to his bed he unbuckled my belt and undid my pants and watched as they fell to the floor. He pulled my boxers down and pushed me to the bed managing to get them off together with my socks at the same time. Edward stood in front of me and said “You are beautiful” right before pushing my back to the bed with his hand over my heart.

Laying on top of me he kissed my lips waiting for me to open my mouth. Letting him enter I pushed my tongue against his before sucking his tongue into my mouth. Edward moaned then and started thrusting his hips, his cock brushing against mine. Pulling away from me he said “Jazz, I want you on your knees for me.”

Turning over so I was on my hands and knees which was what I thought he meant I placed my knees further apart. “You have a sweet ass.” Edward said as he kissed it and ran his tongue along the crack of my ass. Placing a hand on each cheek he pulled them apart really opening me up. His tongue pushed itself inside and I growled. Edward brought one of his fingers to my mouth next and said “Suck on this before I stick it in your ass.” Sucking his finger eagerly making it as wet as I could he took it away from me and pushed it in me. Fuck. This wasn't like a well-lubricated finger. He pumped it in and out of me a few times before withdrawing his finger. Whimpering, I wanted him back inside me. He grabbed a condom and some real lube and putting the condom on he put the lube over it before rubbing it in the crack of my ass. Surely he wasn't going to just try to take me this fast, was he? He'd only been inside me once and I didn't think it was stretched enough for him to even try something like that. With me tensing up Edward said “Relax, Jasper. I won't hurt you.” Then he put one of the fingers back inside me using the lube he'd coated my ass with and wiggled it before adding another one and then another. I felt heat welling up in my chest at his touch. Removing his fingers he put his hands on my ass and gently pushed his cock inside me. I sighed loudly in relief once he was all the way in. “Do you like that, Jazz?” Edward asked me.

“Fuck, yes.” I practically yelled and started thrusting my hips back. He thrust in and out of me hitting the hidden places there, making me feel good. The only problem with this position was I couldn't see Edward. I wanted to see him as he fucked me, just like I watched when I fucked him. “Stop. Edward, please stop.” I said stilling my own movements.

He stopped and concerned said “Jazz, are you okay? Am I hurting you?”

Turning my head to the side I said “I'm fine, you aren't hurting me.”

“Then, what is it?” He asked me.

“I want to see you. I want to watch you fuck me.” I said and he laughed.

“Is that all? Fuck, you were freaking me out.” Edward said relieved and pulled out of my ass. Laying on my back with my knees bent he entered my ass again. Not quite getting the leverage I wanted I placed my feet on his chest and let him push my legs close towards my body as he thrust in me and I pushed him back as he thrust out of me. He had both his hands flat on the bed on either side of me and I was sure this looked some convoluted exercise, if it wasn't for the fact that we were both naked and he had his cock in my ass. Watching him we took the thrusts slow at first before working at a faster pace. His green eyes were dark as they looked into mine and I watched as he licked his lips. My own lips parted in want, but I didn't want to break our rhythm. It felt good to have him inside.

“Fuck.” I cried out as I felt as though I was getting nearer time to let go.

“Let go for me, Jazz. Don't hold it in.” Edward said and I reached down and cupped my balls tugging at them a few times before sliding my hand over my cock using our combined sweat to make it easier. Sliding my thumb over the tip of my cock first I moved it around my head and watched as Edward was watching me do this. That was all it took before I let go.

“Edward!” I shouted before my cum shot over my stomach.

He kept up his thrusts as my ass tightened around him before letting go himself. Pulling out of me he got up as my legs fell flat to the bed sore and trembling now. He went to the bathroom and threw the condom away and brought a warm washcloth to me and wiped off my stomach and my ass before throwing it accurately into his laundry bin.

Edward curled his body around mine and said “I love you, Jasper.” It was the first time he'd used my name and not Jazz when he told me he loved me.

Running my hands through his unruly hair I said “I love you too, Edward.”

Sex with him was exhausting. I wasn't sure I'd be able to get out of bed. My stomach disagreed with me though by growling loudly. Laughing I said “I'm too tired to even attempt to make dinner.”

“I know what you mean. How about we order pizza instead? We haven't had that in a while.” Edward said and I groaned. That would require that I get out of bed and put clothes on. My stomach continued to get louder though so I had no choice but to agree. “Let me call it in first then we can take a quick shower together before they get here.” Edward said. Shower, quick, and Edward weren't necessarily things I liked together, but it would have to do for today.

Turning the warm water on I stepped into the shower and waited for Edward. I'd be damned if we were taking a shower together and not at least washing each other, even if we were too tired for anything else. He got in and looked me over with so much lust my cock twitched a little at it, but I'd just got my brains fucked out of me, it couldn't do anything more than twitch. We spent the next few minutes washing each other's sweat-soaked hair and bodies before drying off and getting dressed again. I went back to my room to look for some clean clothes to put on. We'd both just barely managed to reach the living room dressed before the doorbell rang.

Edward opened it and paid the guy before setting it down on the coffee table and I grabbed some beers from the fridge and some napkins. Plopping down on the couch I winced, I'd already forgotten my ass had just been fucked. I don't guess I'd be forgetting it for a while now. Edward saw it and chuckled as I shifted to sit more comfortably. I'd be too tired and too sore to do anything else tonight so I asked Edward “Do you want to watch a movie?”

“Sure, what did you have in mind?” He asked me.

Shrugging I said “I don't know. You have a bunch of movies over there that haven't even been opened. How about one of those?”

“Okay.” He said and we searched through them narrowing it down to a handful and picked one at random to watch. We hunkered down on the couch and ate our pizza in the near semi-darkness and sipped our beer. The movie was supposed to be funny, I think, but I couldn't concentrate on it as I kept seeing Edward's silhouette next to me. Eventually setting my food and drink aside I scooted next to Edward and turned his head to me capturing his lips with mine. “Jasper...” He breathed.

There was no way I was going to have sex now, but that wasn't going to stop me from making out with Edward. He set his own stuff aside and I pulled his t-shirt off and then my own. Pushing him down on the couch I remembered him doing the same thing to me. Kissing his neck I sucked the skin into my mouth licking at the same time. My hands roamed over his chest as my mouth moved down and I licked and sucked his nipples. Continuing my kissing I worked downwards and eventually found Edward's belly button before dipping my tongue in and felt his hips raise off the couch.

“Jasper, come back up here.” He told me as I scooted my body back up his. He put his hands on my face bringing me closer to him saying again today “I love you.” Then he pulled my head down to his and kissed my lips gently.

Sighing I relaxed and said “Let's go to bed, Edward. You wore me out.” Getting up he pulled me to his room and we shed the rest of our clothes before lying down. It didn't take long before I was out.

When I woke up in the morning my head was laying awkwardly on Edward's chest. Sitting up I tried to work the kinks out of my neck. Leaving his room I walked past the living room and our unfinished food and beer. Getting ready for another day of work I was standing in front of the mirror when I noticed a few noticeable bite marks on my neck. Fuck. Where the hell did those come from? I didn't remember Edward doing that yesterday, unless he did that when I was asleep. Deciding not to hide them I wore a shirt with no tie today.

Having slept in a little I grabbed something to go and a bottle of water. Edward walked out of his room before I left and said “Have a better day today. I'll meet you up at the school this afternoon.”

Gulping some of the water down I nodded. Then walking up to him I kissed him and said “Did you leave these when I was sleeping?” I was pointing at the bruises on my neck.

He grinned at me and said “Of course I did. Who else would do that? Besides, I wanted to make a good impression on your boss. This way he won't automatically think we are acting. Not to mention it was fun to do.” Smiling at him I raked my hands through his hair before kissing him goodbye.

Waiting impatiently for my work day to end I was half dreading what was to come and half excited. Edward would be there and we would be out for the first time together, truly out with people we knew. It would give us practice before dealing with more important people in our lives.

Edward met me outside in our usual meeting spot and I showed him the way to my boss's office. He held my hand in his on the way there. A few of the students saw us, including some of my own. Some of them said nothing to me or about us. Some were clearly not surprised, which made me wonder again how long I'd been hiding this from myself. One of the girls in my class whistled and said “Way to go teach'. I didn't know you had a boyfriend as cute as you.” I rolled my eyes at her as Edward chuckled beside me.

Making it to the office we sat down and waited as I got more nervous by the minute. The receptionist kept looking at us curiously. “Jasper, stop fidgeting. Everything will be okay.” Edward told me before cupping my face in his hands and kissing my lips softly. Wrapping my arms around him I kissed his neck and felt his tongue lick the rim of my ear like I'd done to him yesterday when I thought he was sleeping. He must not have been because he did it exactly like I did. Fuck, it felt good. “Calm down. I can speak for the both of us.” He told me before we were called into the office again. For some reason I felt like I was getting sent to the principal's office like I was in high school about to get detention. Edward and I had served many of those together.

I wasn't paying attention as my boss introduced himself to Edward, my eyes couldn't leave him. He looked so at ease and confident. Sitting down Mr. Bug Man spoke saying “So how long have you two been together?” Fuck.

Edward held my hand and squeezed silently telling me to be quiet. He said “We grew up together, were college roommates together and then roommates. We've been together about a year now.” Now he was lying through his teeth, but as neither one of us had dated in that long I supposed it would be a good enough answer if anyone bothered to look into it.

“So you have been boyfriend's that long?” He asked pushing us trying to catch us in a lie.

Edward leaned forward still holding my hand and said “Yes, but to me Jazz isn't my boyfriend, he's my partner.” My face was carefully blank when he said this even though I was silently doing a happy dance. I squeezed his hand this time and he looked at me smiling.

Grinning at him I reached up to the collar of my shirt and tugged at it letting my boss see the marks there. Edward's hand let go of mine and intentionally went to the bruises there and traced them, not acting like he knew anyone else was in the room at all. My boss coughed and brought us back to reality. “I think that's all I need to hear from you. You may go now.” Mr. Bug Man said and we walked out hand in hand.

Laughing in relief I pulled Edward to me and kissed him hard our tongues dancing together. My hands made their way to his hair and I tugged on it as I heard him moan and he put his own hands in my hair. It seemed like we stood there forever just kissing. My boss and his receptionist eventually walked out and saw us there and I heard my boss say “Shit, I guess he wasn't kidding. That girl has some answering to do tomorrow.”

“Jasper, let's go home. I've missed you today.” Edward said before taking my hand again and walking us away from the campus.

AN: I'm exhausted after writing that. Hope you guys don't take it for granted.